5月27号,随着USC的一纸拒信,终结了我09fall的美国申请之路,惨烈的结果也随之摆在我的眼前:无一录取。如今我的处境似乎处在一个艰难的局面,之前的毫无准备,使我不可能在遭遇金融寒冬的此刻谋求一份不错的工作,接下来的路将何去何从,在开始思考这个问题的时刻,似乎我应该先把这之前的经历画下一个句点,再来谈将来的路,于是就有了这篇文章。朋友说我很有勇气,毕竟要重新面对一次这样心痛梦碎的过程,不是每个人都愿意去再经历一次的,但我相信,在什么地方跌倒,就要在什么地方爬起来继续面对生活,写下这篇文章,是对自己这一年来的生活画下句号,也为后来申请的同志们提一些醒,虽然我觉得我的事例不具备参考价值。
准备工作
有出国这个打算,下定决心是大二下学期的事了,因为那位令我大学生涯没有白费的老师,但是这个念头已经在心头萦绕了很多年,一直很想去有别于我们习惯的环境看一看。但是当时,出国在我看来并不是那么困难的,所以我一直没把这当太大一回事,觉得要出去始终出得去的。但是这一观点在我08年春节后到达北京新东方GRE培训班后便被彻底击碎了。那个时候我才明白,所谓的出国大军有多么庞大,也才真正明白俞敏洪那句经典名言是在怎样一个环境下总结出来的,真的是在绝望中寻找希望啊。但不管如何,我还是一步一步地准备起这些考试来。不过,由于种种原因,我的GRE和托福成绩并不十分理想,这也成为我申请过程中的致命伤,虽然我不知道各个学校拒绝我的具体原因,但是我相信,这两个分数的缺陷占据其中很重要的部分。
中介
由于学校和自身等各方面的原因,我成为了受大家鄙视的中介客户。不可否认,中介在这其中省了我不少事,但省事的同时,弊病也很多:办事较为拖拉,文书质量不高等等。由于这些中介的普遍毛病,令我后期等通知的时候非常被动,在09年春节后,我最常做的事就是打电话询问中介情况,虽然这种情况的优点是我不必神经质地时时刷邮箱,但是这种被动的状况也很令人心生不满。而且,由于我个人的原因,几乎整个申请事宜我都是全权委托中介帮我弄的,以至于到等结果的3-5月,我几乎什么都摸不着头脑,而中介基于自身公司利益的考虑拒绝提供给我申请的邮箱,这样我就只能等他们的消息,而无法自己去询问或者查询结果。
REJ雨的来临
第一封rej是Indiana University的,但是还不以为意,毕竟当初这所也是权宜的选择。
Thank you for your interest in the Applied Communication graduate program in the Department of Communication Studies. We appreciate having the opportunity to review your application materials. Unfortunately, after careful review of your application to our program, the Admissions Committee has determined that we cannot admit you for the fall semester. This year our applications were particularly competitive. Thank you for your interest in our program. 没多久,就接到了雪城的电话面试通知,为此我做了不少准备,但最后结果并不好,我准备了一墙壁的资料,却换来3分钟不到的通话,并得到最后rej的惨剧。称之为惨剧,是因为雪城是我在做出出国决定的同时定下来一定要申请的学校,一直的关注,令我对这所学校的感情非同一般,就是我心目中的dream school。所以受到拒信的时候,对我的打击非常大,我用了将近一个月的时间来平复这件事。
电话面试通知: On behalf of Professor James Tsao, Professor and Advertising Department Chair, I will be arranging a 15 minute phone interview for him to speak with you about The Syracuse University, Newhouse School, Advertising Graduate Program. He would like to conduct this interview on Monday February 16, 2009 at a time between 9:00am-10:00am, USA, Eastern Standard Time. Please calculate YOUR time accordingly. Please let me know what 15 minute time would be most convenient for you.
Please also give me the EXACT phone number of which you will be using to receive this call. 拒信: I regret to inform you that you have not been accepted to the Newhouse School’s Advertising master's program for the 2009-10 academic year. The competition for spaces in the program was exceedingly tough and we were forced to make some very difficult decisions. This admission decision should not be viewed as a reflection on your academic abilities or your potential to succeed. We wish we had better news for you. Good luck in your future endeavors.
似乎是要来的喜欢一起来,接下来没多久我就收到了UW-Madison的拒信。这一所当初决定申请的纯粹也是想碰碰运气的,所以几乎没报希望,而且经历了雪城的事情之后,这个带来的伤痛已经很小了。
We are sorry to inform you that you have not been admitted to the Graduate School at UW-Madison. A letter has been mailed. 接着我就开始把希望寄托在UIUC和UFL上,但结果还是令我失望。 Thank you for your application to the M.S. graduate program in the Department of Advertising at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign. We received many applications this year and the admissions process was highly competitive.
We regret to inform you that you have not been accepted into the M.S. program in Advertising for fall 2009
Best wishes in your future academic endeavors.
I regret to inform you that after careful consideration, your application for admission to the Master’s program in the College of Journalism and Communications has been denied. The reviewers based their decision on the totality of the application materials you submitted. The Master’s program is limited in size resulting in a very competitive application process. This means that many highly qualified applicants are denied. This decision may not be due to anything negative in your file, but rather from the qualifications of other applicants and insufficient faculty resources to support your research interests. Thank you for your interest in the University of Florida. I certainly wish you success in your pursuit of higher education.
这时候已经是4月上旬了,我所申请的6所美国学校只剩下一所USC没有出结果了,接下来我就进入了将近两个月的漫长等待中。几乎每隔两天我就要打电话问一遍中介是否有结果,搞得我整个人都神经兮兮的。在5月二十多号,论坛上陆续有人说收到录取通知,而我还是什么消息都没收到,不祥的预感已经产生。这次USC没让我等太久,5月27号,我正式收到他家的rej。
Thank you for providing us the opportunity to review your application for admission to the Master of Communication management degree program at USC Annenberg. I write with regrets that we are unable to offer you a space for fall 2009.
An official letter was mailed to your current mailing address in China, thank you for considering USC Annenberg for graduate studies.
就这样,我的09美国梦彻底醒了,碎了。可能会有人说我何必搞得这么悲观,10年再来不就行了,何必这么矫情。但是我只能说,各人有各人的情况,并不是每个家长都能支持孩子一直在这种看不到希望的路上不断走下去的,至少我爸妈并不支持,虽然他们也不反对,但对于我一个女孩子来说,我能在他们眼中看到担忧,也在我妈不断地看似开玩笑地让我去相亲的话语中看到我的美国梦碎。 总结 这一路走来,我想过很多,似乎可以说在这一年来我迅速成长起来。这一路的跌跌撞撞,也有一些经验教训可以说说,虽然很多人都说过了,也不一定符合别人的情况,但仍希望有一定的借鉴作用。 首先,我不建议找中介,这点绝对是经验之谈,省事是省事了,但是却有很多弊病,我上文也发过牢骚了。不过,关于这一点我也不后悔,因为当时的情况逼得我不得不找人代劳很多事。 其次,一定要重视托福成绩。在整个申请过程中,我觉得GRE重要是重要,但没有到致命性的作用。但在今年众多录取要求同时上语言学校的现状来看,考个好托福成绩还是很有必要的,而口语能力更加要加强,毕竟现在越来越多学校喜欢电话面试测试英语水平。我这次的申请失败,很大原因就是因为我的语言成绩实在是低到一个低点。 接下来的路怎么走我还没想好,但09fall申请的句点我现在要画下了,要接着准备将来的生活了。不过在经历了这么多失败和挫折之后,我仍然相信有生之年只要有机会,我还是会选择去那神秘的美洲大陆呆一呆的,毕竟那是我的一个梦,一个碎了但是仍然存在的美梦。 祝福收到offer的同志们在美生活一切顺利。 |