[原创] 如黑色般永恒宁静的一个女孩离我而去－－－记录我的一段情感经历

OB叔UID: 188695

流年

歌手:王菲 专辑:你王菲所以我王菲

流年

作曲:陈晓娟
作词:林夕

爱上一个天使的缺点
用一种魔鬼的语言
上帝在云端只眨了一眨眼
最后眉一皱头一点

爱上一个认真的消遣
用一朵花开的时间
你在我旁边只打了个照面
五月的晴天闪了电

有生之年狭路相逢
终不能幸免
手心忽然长出纠缠的曲线
懂事之前情动以后
长不过一天
留不住算不出流年
哪一年让一生改变

遇见一场烟火的表演
用一场轮回的时间
紫微星流过来不及说再见
已经远离我一光年

不知道，为什么，因为Z君说她喜欢王菲的歌，然后自己去找。在众多的歌曲里面，还是还是最喜欢流年。特别是那个“手心忽然长出纠缠的曲线”，下午的时候听了至少5遍。
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[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-6 at 02:02 ]

晨曦UID: 177893

take care

OB叔UID: 188695

到底该压抑呢，还是释放的？这的确是个问题。

晚上上自习的时候，学不进去，听着水木年华的歌在自习室外面踱来踱去的，就是不想进自习室去学习。最后还是逃之夭夭。到超市里买个冰淇淋和薯片后，会到屋里开始看《GSGJS》。

看了一阵子，困了。先给妈妈打了一个电话，大概说了，OK。

然后给二伯打了一个电话，聊了一下关于思想方面的问题，感觉很爽。看来聊天是我最好的释放情绪的方式，最好是跟思想比我成熟的人聊天，这样我还能吸收更多的思想。所以，以后郁闷的时候也不必偏要找女孩子去解忧，呵呵，直接找二伯聊天就OK，感觉挺好的。以后看再跟三哥，二哥……，反正说完话后，我就是个爽啊。关键是，爽完后要立即学习了。今天就是聊完之后，洗完脚后又在网上浪费时间去找歌。这歌以后肯定要注意了。

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[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-6 at 04:28 ]

OB叔UID: 188695

At the night of yesterday, I suddenly knew that I have to calm down and try my best to study and learn more knowledge, as these days I am too upset and active to calm down and do what I have to do, for example TOEFL Test.

But when I started to change my old way of life at that time, I just did't want to study any more. I don't know why. Maybe, I was missing my girl at time. Then I login GTER and began to water and chat. That was cool! At WATER PLATE, I just wrote a post named WHO ARE MISSING ME NOW? I use the ID naiba369. I thought there would be some of my old friends, they could visit this post and leave some messages to me. But a stranger named CATTE started to chat with me. I used the ID naiba369 as LIN YUE RU who is one of the heroines in the RPG game PAL. Surely, I supposed her my girl friend. Then I used the ID Orange&Blue and went on. I said that once I made a woodcut of LIN YUE RU at the course of fine arts in my junior high school. Then we chated a lot about PAL, from its musics to its hero and heroines. From the conversation, we both feeled that we may become friends. And it did. At last, he sent an QQ invitation. That's great. But it was to late. It was about 4:00 am. And that disturb my regular rhythm of life. Too bad!

And this morning, I am to tired to concentrate my attention on my TOEFL study. I am upset not reassure. And in the afternoon about 3:45 pm, I sent a very long and romantic SMS to Z my girl.

The content is as follow:


好久没联系了，最近好吗？别给你自己太大压力了。

现在是在京么？放假的时候你那间屋子的灯从没亮过，所以估计你是“进京赶考”去了。

尽力去做，但不要太刻意，同时也不要太消极。表现出自己的真实状态久好了，否则签证官也许会认为你不honest。

你没问题的，我观察了你的P星。你的主星是**星，今年的出行运是最强的，方向是东北方向。而我对比看了我的主星，恩，比星座更准！所以更没什么可担心的了。

但我建议你还是要把那些问题好好研究一下。我的感觉，说话那绝对是门艺术。关键是要猜透VO的心理，然后在真实的基础上投其所好，再加上点表演的成份即可。

当然这对你而言很难，呵呵，但对于我这个“天才”而言就是简单多了，特别是我的台词天赋，帮帮你想出些完美的问题回答估计问题不大。

虽然托福考完后依旧很忙，但你的忙我是一定要帮的，因为你是我目前最喜欢的女人。更关键的是：你是个大好人，心底善良、美丽心灵、冰清玉洁、冰雪聪明。希望我的认真能感动GOD。

呵呵，如果他太忙了，我就每过5分钟久给他发个短信，烦死他。呵呵，那是开玩笑了。

但有时候，我真的很相信我的感觉。我的感觉是你可能开始时不太顺，但最后经过自己的努力还是弄到了签证。我真的感觉出来了。因为像你这么好的女孩理应出国成功。

我就是想告诉你：要尽力，但绝对不要刻意，表达真实的自我，让签证官感觉出你的的那颗“美丽心灵”就行了。BLESS。短信联系

when I have sent all those SMS, I am crying. For my earnest attitude and for my true love.

I am not very well in the evening study. I left at 9:30 p.m. After some running and jumping, I decide to see whether she still in T city. Fortunately, she still in. In the name of borrowing DVD, I just chat with her about 10 minutes as she has a friend in her apartment. Then I left. However, riding far from about 10 meters, I decide to stay there, below her window, to sing a song named LIU NIAN. That is very cool! And I think she must be very happy and maybe move to tears. ^_^

OK, I have to calm down, despite it is so difficult for me to get.

[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-4 at 15:04 ]

OB叔UID: 188695

There is some differences in Western and Eastern.

In China, football is a sacred task, so everybody admire it, and that is why we China Team is such super big bullshit!

In Western, football is just a game, just like eating and resting, so ordinary that each one use common, even light-hearted attitued to face it. Enjoy it when win, Forget it when lose.

That's enough

It is the same with love

But I can not make it just like a LOVE GAME

Because I am not a badguy!

[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-4 at 15:05 ]

OB叔UID: 188695

All human being's emotions can be explained in a biochemical way. We are happy due to <多肽酚> ，we are angry and morose because of epinephrine<肾上腺素>, and we are asleep as there are lots of melatonin<褪黑素>.
Besides, our left brain works mainly on language, control the gland which secretes <多肽酚>, so happy is our left brain

While, our right brain works chiefly on thinking, control the gland which produces epinephirne, that is source of stress and angry.

If you want to keep your mind clear, so you can bask, and enjoy the sunshine outside.

Happy? Yeah! You can control it, it all depends on you, on your mind, on your action, on your attitude of life.

Some one said that if you are unhappy, that is because you heart below the happy, in the dark misfortune. If that is true. Friend, let us free our mind and let our heart fly.

Fly fly high to the sky

Make your heart above that dark horizon, then you can happy forever

[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-4 at 15:05 ]

OB叔UID: 188695

Tomorrow is the 5T, and now I suddenly know that this time is even worse than last ones of 10T in 2004.

Maybe I can find some excuses to let me feel better, however, I will never do this, as from now on, I have to do everything that useful not just from an impulsion. Yes, I like Z, even love her. I have tried my best to let her know that how I like her. But a lot of things which I have done is useless. Yes, I have to give her some memories so that when we meet other some years later, she may be love me soon, just for we have memories. But everything has a limit. When you do these things, your mind can't well focus on your study, which also is a significant thing that she maybe considered. Each woman hope her husband have PHD from Harvard or MIT. That's also useful.

Do something useful and be happy. Don't let yourself in the dark mood. And do more useful thing for your future and love. That is truth.

Bless for myself in tommorw's TOEFL test, although I know I will never get a good mark.

[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-4 at 15:05 ]

OB叔UID: 188695

Everest, If you want know how I like you, I wil answer just like this:

To feel with my true heart

To think with my beatuiful mind

To tolerate with my silent patience

To care with my heart and soul

To love with my body and bone

To wait with my time passing by

To appreciate with my such forever memories.

[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-4 at 15:06 ]

OB叔UID: 188695

I have to insist on my studying on GRE and TOEFL tests. I also have to keep on my love on my girl Everest. But it is so hard for me to achieve both of them simultaneously.

I am not the person who can deal with a lot of things at same time exactly and quickly. But I have to learn this ability, as it is very important indeed. In the future, I will also face the problem that how to deal with the relationship between my career any family. Both of them are indispensable for each man. So from now on, I have to practise this to avoid the tragedy.

These days, I am not very industrious just like days before. I have changed. Just like a circle, change to the original state of mine, calm and with little ambition. So just start it again. Just for me, not for mun or Everest. Maybe I should remind me everytime that I have to fulfil my promise to dad.

OK

Enjoy yourself and follow your dreams!

Cheer up!

:)

OB叔UID: 188695

1.concentrate on the moment. feel, don't think. use your instincts.

2.be mindful with your feelings

3.fear is the path to the dark side. fear leads to anger. anger leads to hate. hate leads to suffering.

4.your focus determines your reality.

5.midi-chlorians are a microcopic life-form....They continuaally speak to us, telling us the will of the force. when you learn to quiet your mind, you'll hear them speaking to you.

6.Yoda: reach out. sense the Force around you. use your feeling you must....clear your minds...

第三条是最关键的

[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-4 at 15:06 ]

OB叔UID: 188695

前几天，CA的一个同学放假回来，我们在QQ上聊了很多

但我只记住了我说的2段话。

1。爱，是两个人的事情。而爱，又是快乐之上的。如果因为我的爱而令一个人很难受，那么，我宁肯不去爱

2。现在的世人都很“俗”，很“功利”。都只要那些现成的、已经表现出来的、很帅、很成功的MAN。谁都不傻。谁都知道好的，往成功、漂亮的人们身上“帖”。但是我不认同。等人家成功了，那么为什么要喜欢你呢，你又有什么可值得喜欢的呢？

哥们我绝对是个人才，如果你真的很了解我，并对我充满信心的话，你就知道我没有吹自己。但是，我知道在我成功之前，我必定要吃很多的苦，受很多的磨练。我很累，我希望有人帮我承担，让我可以解忧。而我也会尽力让她开心的。

我只是希望：我和我喜欢的人一同成长！

[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-4 at 15:06 ]

OB叔UID: 188695

同标题

[ Last edited by Orange&Blue on 2005-6-4 at 15:07 ]

wefreeUID: 162249

我也是水瓶 她也月底签证

祝福。

也许无缘了。

OB叔UID: 188695

Originally posted by 吴思萱 at 2005-6-4 18:00
我也是水瓶 她也月底签证

祝福。

也许无缘了。

祝福吴思萱了

～bless

lingli_xiaoaiUID: 172506

我觉得喜欢没有什么值得和不值得的问题.我特别羡慕能去喜欢一个人的人.我从上高中开始到现在6年时间没有主动去喜欢过任何一个男生.开始我没有注意到为什么,现在才知道,我已经把我的心留在了16岁,从此以后就再也没有收回来,而且也永远收不回来了.我觉得只要知道自己喜欢的人还在某一个地方生活得很好,心痛总有一天会平静下来.但是如果他离开了这个世界,就算也许不是爱情,由于他留给你的永远都是最美的样子,就是那一点不甘心,就让一个人永远都走不出来. 很多东西,还是不要留下遗憾的好,就算受伤也没有关系,这才是人生.