at last i saw my application status online: not accepted!!! i feel so desperate. though there's springsunshine outside, my heart is frozen.
maybe i really should change my attitude. i always avoid troubling others. as a result, i didn't write or talk to any professor and just quietly do what i should and then wait for the result. now that the result is there, i just feel like crying.
thanks for your comfort, pliuya and 甜橙, i'm now feeling much better. yes. i really think i should work harder and be more active in future life, esp. in academic pursuit. anyway, god only helps those who help themselves. now that i'm in the States, i love my compatriots more than ever. thanks again.