I feel like to kill myself for a long time, every dark night in my own locked room...
A knief in hand, with the cold sharp blade closely slips through my wrist, just like a twig scraping on your silk clothes...
T'was not a good day today...no sun and can't see the green leaves...
Was it u prepared the winter for me, honey?
I don't wanna think that big much...
But I have to imagine the red liquid gurgling out from my body now...
Comes to the carpet,
Or splashing everywhere...
It could be a jealous amazing, my sweet!
And I will not cry at that moment, perhaps I've decided to smile?
Death is as lovely as a brillant new life, I knew it when I was a little girl...
I only hope he could be by my side, someone I wanna see...
I wanna see his tears streaming from the good-looking eyes...
At the last blink of myself...
I wanna u to be with me, my dear...
I wanna cry now...
cmft , no matter how much you love a person, you can never hurt yourself!
Waiting may make you crazy,
Because you have only fixed your eyes on one person
Enjoy life even without him
He is part of you but not all of you